Some days I feel like crying, don't matter if it's raiiiiin or shiiiiiine...

Everybody needs to be rescued sometimes.

Some days the world simply feels too overwhelming, to heavy and too vast.

It's on days like this that we appreciate the people in our lives who have enough compassion to understand, enough love to try, and enough courage to care.

Sometimes we don't realize we're even capable of receiving help. It's all too easy for a person to feel so utterly, completely and absolutely alone, that they're barely even able to ask for it.

Don't forget that you're NEVER alone.

Even when you feel pulled down into the depths of the deepest, scariest, most unknown vortex of yourself, you're not alone.

Feeling far away can be part of this too; not wanting to disrupt other's lives, or put the burden on someone else... the truth is, when you reach out, even if it's only for someone to listen, or talk 'normally,' to you for a while so you can feel some of the relief of the regularity of someone else's life--- that's what often times, is the exact thing one needs to anchor again.

Asking for help is the most brave thing a person can do. It's not weakness, it's strength. Knowing when to seek what you need--- STRENGTH. A person must be STRONG to do it.

I used to suffer by myself; I'm a sensitive, an all-too-energetically aware being. It's only been in the last 5 years or so that I realized exactly how things affect me in this life and this world; I'm still figuring some things out.

Everyone has a gray place, a dark place, a murkiness that hides behind the eyes and the heart.

It's one of the many things that makes us human, that makes us alive.

It's really hard to ask for help sometimes. Goddamned hard, but it's worth doing.

There are things that cannot be held, survived, contained or controlled alone. Some demons within are too great and a body needs backup to keep them at bay so they can be processed a little at a time.

There is not one kind of depression, sadness or fear. There are hundreds, thousands, millions. Every person has a different interpretation-- a different piece of puzzle.

You don't have to know exactly where someone is coming from to help. You have only to listen. To be present for them with love, compassion and patience.

No fixing. No taking over. Just listen to them-- it can help a person feel empowered, seen and loved, even if it's only for a moment. That little bit of hope and light - that's some times the difference between a body making it through, or succumbing to the pain, fear and deep.

No one is responsible for anybody but themselves - people can't be saved outwardly, they have to decide to save themselves, to do the work, and this is no easy task.

Remember to have patience for others and patience for yourself. It's no good to hold on to a pattern of behavior or belief system, that doesn't serve you as an individual. It's just like wearing an ill-fitting garment; horribly uncomfortable.

Please don't give up: on yourself, or someone else.

You don't have to remain constantly vigilant, but be open to someone who needs you, even if it's only for a 5 minute window to hear a friendly, comforting voice.

Depreciative judgement never helps. Of self, or of others when a trial appears. It makes things harder, more painful and clouded.

Honesty with one's self and others is what releases the hurt sometimes. It's okay to be scared and feel like a freak-- you're NOT one.

There's a quote, no one knows who it's really attributed to, but it goes like this:

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.


Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.


It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.


We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?


Actually, who are you not to be?


Your playing small doesn't serve the world.


There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.


We are born to manifest the glory within us.


It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. 


And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do to the same.


As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."




So, BE YOURSELF.

Warts and all, darkness and light, hard and easy; no depths are too deep, no height too disorienting.

Also, please don't forget: Someone loves you and cares whether you live or die. Please don't ever be afraid to ask for help.

This entry is dedicated to E: You are loved. <3