How am I going to get through all this emotion?
When will I feel quite like myself again and at home in my body?
October was full of weeks with nostalgia for something I couldn't remember…
A part of my past that was so completely through I longed for the familiar pain of it.
Silly things and old baggage rearing up it's wrinkled muzzle to snuff around.
Halloween came.. my favourite holiday… no decorations…
Only a game of waiting and hoping and frustration and bewildering silence.
A week later my birthday… and events began to end.
Starting and stopping STOPPED.
November was the month of new beginnings; with turning 30 came another day to mark the calendar.
Our baby was born.